PATIENCE

Assalamualaikum and hi.

I'm not the most patient kind of person. I easily got mad and might blow lots of bullshit from my mouth in which lots of them people don't want to hear . I'm like a ticking time bomb . 

Push the switch and I'm all out baby

But lately , I manage to control the demon eager to escape from my tiny body . I can control my anger , and of course my swearing. All thanks to him. 

This dear readers is Abu Muezza.

Yes , he's a cat . I met him last year , maybe October , I don't know . Time flies really really fast . He sat there infront of my house begging for food , purring, running into the house when anyone opened the door . Well , he's an attention seeker . And he got our attention . Finally. 

I was in boarding school , leaving Abu with my mom , dad, lil sister and my elder sister . They hated Abu at first but as time start to grow , and so does their love . My mom bought him some cat food and everything was fine . 

Well not until lately .

My dear readers , he's a stray cat . So , no one knows how old is him . I guess maybe around 8 or 9 years old . But the main point is He's dying. He don't want to eat or drink and made less purring sound . I was scared at first if he's going to die or not . My dad said he's dying but I refuse to believe him.

Until , one day , I was spoon feeding him that I notice something greyish in his eyes . As I look closer , I can't take it . Both of his greenish brown eyes are now clouded grey . His pupils were swelling and the corneas torn revealing a sight I can't bear . 

No one knows , what or who cause this torture to my Abu but he certainly is suffering . He eventually become a blind cat . He can't see his path and bumped into every furniture in my house . He didn't recognize his food and refuse to eat it . And it dawned on me that he IS DYING .

Did I tell you , I don't know his age ? What I know is that he's old . I mean very old . He only have 4 teeth . I mean a serious 4 ! He can't tell whether he's gonna poop or pee . The worst part of all , he don't know where his potty is ! 

And one day , I just can't take it . I can't bear his innocent looking face when he accidentally poop on the carpet . I kicked him out . That was my worst mistake of all . Allah shows to His worshipers that He can pay back what deed we do and what sin we create , 

I started to feel uneasy and unsafe . I fell while riding on my motorcycle . I dropped hot pan on my already swelling toe . Everyday , my facial cleanser "ACCIDENTALLY" cleans my eye balls . I searched for Abu for 4 days and finally find him back . He accept me with open paws . 

Now ? Yes , he's happy . Still blind and can't properly eat his food, poops and pees every corner in my house, but he still my Abu . He's thinner , yes . He's dying ? Let time see . But before his time come , I wanted to be with his every second , everyday . I will spoon feed him till he die . I will clean his but till he can't walk anymore . 

Cause he's mine . He's my ABU